Post by SnappedBones on Jun 11, 2016 5:33:36 GMT -5
Hey Everyone, SnappedBones/Fertig here, and I just wanted to explain something about last night and my sudden disappearance.
First off I apologize about that, as it wasn't exactly a kind thing to do, and it certainly doesn't make me look good as staff now does it? Truth is, I swear now and always will, that I will be the best Staff for Joy and PsychoBarbi as I possibly can. I make the same promise to everyone else who comes to Frisco, who comes into my circle, even if only to check in on what the room is like.
The truth is?
I have several mental disorders, my main and primary one, is something called Borderline Personality Disorder. This is a tricky disorder because there is no straight forward way to treat it, no medication guaranteed to help, and we are the highest risk. A person with BPD has a suicide rate of 60%, and about 90% of us suffer from PTSD, as well as anxiety and depression.
This basically means that we are, out of all the mental disorders, perhaps the most fragile and delicate. We can take on a lot, we're strong people, and we love deeper than anyone else in the world... But it also means that once we hit a certain spot? We shatter. Like too many snowflakes on a branch, it just takes that one little extra bit before it all comes crumbling down.
I am seeing a psychologist and I am medicated, so I am what I want to say is stable, I am learning so much more about myself than I knew before. One of those things is my limit. I know what most of my triggers are now, and how to avoid them or at the very least, handle them in a way that is effective and healthy. One of them is removing myself from any situation that I feel will put myself at risk. This means an entire withdraw, so in reality I close myself off in a bedroom or out in the woods somewhere, and on line it means I leave every social media.
I usually do try to let people know if I have to go, and though sometimes I fail, I am better about it now. I don't tell everyone though, simply because I do not want to cause undo concern or drama for anyone, so it's usually the other moderators in the room who get the information. They will be the ones to explain what is going on to the extent they feel comfortable doing so, and they do it with my blessings, because they are the people I trust to understand my disorder and why I must do what I do.
At the end of the day, I want to have fun, just like everyone else does.
I am not broken, I just got cracks that let the love in, and let the light out. I'm perfectly ok to talk to, to play with, and to have as a friend. I like to think I make a damn good friend too, but that is something that I can't say without being totally chauvinistic, but I would like to think my friends would support the claim. 
So there it is, people of Frisco, I am the local nutter butter factory. If you feel unsure about anything, or have any questions, I am open to answering them. I understand that BPD is a still little known mental disorder, and it can be hard to understand, not to mention the grab back of mental disorders that come under it's big fat mental umbrella. So anything you need help with, any questions, or general information? I am here for you.
SnappedBones/Fertig
First off I apologize about that, as it wasn't exactly a kind thing to do, and it certainly doesn't make me look good as staff now does it? Truth is, I swear now and always will, that I will be the best Staff for Joy and PsychoBarbi as I possibly can. I make the same promise to everyone else who comes to Frisco, who comes into my circle, even if only to check in on what the room is like.
The truth is?
I have several mental disorders, my main and primary one, is something called Borderline Personality Disorder. This is a tricky disorder because there is no straight forward way to treat it, no medication guaranteed to help, and we are the highest risk. A person with BPD has a suicide rate of 60%, and about 90% of us suffer from PTSD, as well as anxiety and depression.
This basically means that we are, out of all the mental disorders, perhaps the most fragile and delicate. We can take on a lot, we're strong people, and we love deeper than anyone else in the world... But it also means that once we hit a certain spot? We shatter. Like too many snowflakes on a branch, it just takes that one little extra bit before it all comes crumbling down.
I am seeing a psychologist and I am medicated, so I am what I want to say is stable, I am learning so much more about myself than I knew before. One of those things is my limit. I know what most of my triggers are now, and how to avoid them or at the very least, handle them in a way that is effective and healthy. One of them is removing myself from any situation that I feel will put myself at risk. This means an entire withdraw, so in reality I close myself off in a bedroom or out in the woods somewhere, and on line it means I leave every social media.
I usually do try to let people know if I have to go, and though sometimes I fail, I am better about it now. I don't tell everyone though, simply because I do not want to cause undo concern or drama for anyone, so it's usually the other moderators in the room who get the information. They will be the ones to explain what is going on to the extent they feel comfortable doing so, and they do it with my blessings, because they are the people I trust to understand my disorder and why I must do what I do.
At the end of the day, I want to have fun, just like everyone else does.
I am not broken, I just got cracks that let the love in, and let the light out. I'm perfectly ok to talk to, to play with, and to have as a friend. I like to think I make a damn good friend too, but that is something that I can't say without being totally chauvinistic, but I would like to think my friends would support the claim. 
So there it is, people of Frisco, I am the local nutter butter factory. If you feel unsure about anything, or have any questions, I am open to answering them. I understand that BPD is a still little known mental disorder, and it can be hard to understand, not to mention the grab back of mental disorders that come under it's big fat mental umbrella. So anything you need help with, any questions, or general information? I am here for you.
SnappedBones/Fertig
